NOTHING LASTS FOREVER :(

July 16th, 2009 by barcialjoel
It is so easy to see
Dysfunction between you and me
We must free up these tired souls
Before the sadness gets us both

I tried and tried to let you know
I love you but I’m letting go
It may not last but I don’t know
Just don’t know

If you don’t know
Then you can’t care
And I show up
But you’re not there
But I’m waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you

Everyday
With every word whispered we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing last forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

A babe that’s warm with memories
Can heal us temporarily
The misbehaving all he makes
The ditch between us so damn deep

Built a wall around my heart
Never let it fall apart
Strangely I wish secretly
It won’t fall down while I’m asleep

If you don’t know
Then you can’t care
And I show up
But you’re not there
But I’m waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you, babe

Everyday
With every word whispered we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing last forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

But we have not hit the ground
Doesn’t mean we’re not still falling, oh..
I want so bad to pick you up
But you’re still too reluctant to accept my help
What a shame I hope you find somewhere to place the blame
But until then the fact remains

Everyday
With every word whispered we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
Nothing last forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way (x2)

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frustrating-infuriating

July 6th, 2009 by barcialjoel

i dont know what on earth (or on hell) has happened to me…its like all the bad lucks here in this world or from there under or from anywhere that is beyond i know has struck me!

and it’s gawd damn frustrating!

i graduated with a degree in college to be a servant for some chinese @ss holes and for some filthy rich countrymen. boot-licking. i don’t even lift my plate at home! i left my work after fourteen months thinking nothing would happen to me there in that gawd-forsaken place (well nothing really did), i applied for a different work which was beyond my interest, hoping i would get hired and find a replacement but not really wanting to. man am i pathetic or what!?! and here i got what i was hoping for…i received and e-mail notifying me that my application is still active and would just be considered if there is a vacancy fit for me or if they don’t, i should just forget about it. i don’t want the job really, but i need it. first it would give me some moral boost (hey i’m of value after all!) and really i need some source of income now

and here i am now, aiming for work elsewhere, with my savings thinning down and no sign of bright hope from the horizon

geez i really am fucked-up exhausted and stressed…i need some break!

at oo ikaw! kasama ka sa mga stress ko, di kita ilalagay baka mabasa mo e

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05-12,09

May 24th, 2008 by barcialjoel

this all happened in a span of 24 hours

around 1am - sinundo namin si lizle with the help of daimler,hindi pwedeng magpakita si ali dahil baka mas lalo siyang di payagan…so nung malapit na kami kailangan nyang humiga don sa likod para magtago hehehe

past 1am - nag-decide na si daimler sumama samin, den nagdecide din kami na wag na kasi mali yung paalam nya, nang ihahatid nya na ko pabalik ng terminal from sofitel ako nag drive ng oto nya, ayun na tsambahan kami ng mga pulis..in my effort na hindi lumaki yung kaso umiyak ako ng 1000 huhuhu. ayun na-miss namin yung 2am trip ng Jam liner.

past 3am - bumiyahe na kami pa-balagtas…hehehe si charles akala 75 ang pasahe ng isa 150 ang bnigay sa conduktor (hehe ayos lang yan charles). nanunuod kami ng ongbak, at nagsimula na si ali

around 4am - nakarating kami ng balagtas, dito kami pinick-up ni kat na hinanap ni ali sa basurahan hehehe dun daw kasi kasya. puyat na kaming lahat, atntagal na raw naghihintay ni kat hehe

around 4.30am - nakarating na kami sa place nila kat, di ko maalala kung kumain pa ba kami, pero mukang ganon na nga, tinapos muna namin yung kung fu panda bago natulog

around 11am - sinundo na namin yung letson, napaka generous nila kat…on the way back nagpaluto na rin kami ng pancit. nag SMS si daimler at lim, nasa tagaytay na sila hahaha excited makita si anna!

1pm siguro - nakaalis kami kala kat, antagal maligo ng mga babae! on the way nag red horse na kami ni ali, pagkatapos ng pang tatlong bote niya lasing na siya at di na naubos yung kulit, parang nag RTO

around 2pm - nagkita-kita na kami nila lim…nagpalit ng sinasakyan sina anna at daimler (bitter!), tabi ko na si blanche Ü si ali at lizle sa tapat namin, si andrea, elaine, vhadel, at charles sa gitna, si daimler, kat at utol nya sa harap.

maghapon kami sa picnic grove. kumain ng handa tapos sumakay ng (nakalimutan ko yung tawag, hehehehe)

around 5pm - papunta na sana kaming palace in the sky/sky in the palace (whatever!) hindi pa kami nakalabas kasi hindi naman kami in-asses pagpasok so di namin alam yung babayaran, pina atras naman ng engot na guard si lim ayun nabungo yung toyota sa likod (in short nagbayad kami ng 5000 at di natuloy yung next stop namin)…

around 6pm - nagpahatid na rin sa sakayan sina elaine at andrea, pauwi may bago ng loveteam…kat at daimler! (badtrip si kat hehehe)

9pm - nakarating kami kala kat, dun na namin sinimulan yung fundador. nag mukhang krayola si daimler, color red hehehe

10pm - umuwi na sina anna blanche daimler at lim (malungkot na si kat, umuwi na si daimler hehehe)

11pm - natapos na namin yung fundador, nagkayayan mag beer house pero di natuloy, natulog na si kat, nagpwestuhan na yung apat ahahaha

tapos na yung birthday ko…

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